Ahh yess Hello..

I never go on here anymore!
Oh well.
I've been soo much more relaxed lately and less stressed about what I do on my days off.
Figuring that I can't live on a day  to day basis and have to just have fun as a whole has really put things into perspective for me.
I don't hate my job by any means, but I think I enjoy time off and doing my own hobbies much more. However, stressing out about the time that I spend after I'm off from work is more tedious than just enjoying my time at work and being rewarded with time to myself afterwards. I'm so bad with words. I had it all mapped out a lot better in my head. Anyways, I'm just trying to say that I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. 
I feel like the fact that I've been in a relationship with a different person since I was really young has put so much more stress on my life. I think I was just getting really tired of that fact and wanted to stretch away from that. I finally have, though, and I feel so much better. ON the other hand, being without a relationship has always made me curious about being in others, with different people. But there's this immediate thought that comes to mind; it would be absolutely pointless to start liking someone else at this stage in my life because I'll be back to square one if I even decided I wanted to be with someone else.
So, yes there's some attractive people out there, but it's all just a distraction for me and my goals. I just have to start thinking about the situational fact being tempting enough for me to completely ruin my progress thus far. For now I'd rather stick to friendships. A minimum at that.
Anyways, I'm so proud of my sister because even though she works practically full time at her job, and cuts hair on the side, she's finally trying to put her own goals into perspective. It's so cute cause last night she scheduled a "meeting" and 12 am with her boyfriend in their room so that they could brainstorm this idea she has.
Her passion is cutting hair, and she's really good at it too. So, she wants to start her own business, and put this whole concept on wheels basically. She wants to have this mobile service where she brings her salon to other people. I think it's a pretty good idea and I think she'd do really well with that. But I was talking about it with her today and she said that it's been a dream of hers, and she really wants to pursue it even if she fails. Something about that I guess really inspired me. Up until this point I have just been "saying" I have goals and stuff but I haven't really attempted to pursue them. I feel like I haven't had any passion in my life lately. Almost like everything is dull. Like, nothing excites me anymore. I hate that I've become like that. It's made me dull and unexciting.
I need to get out of that funk. I feel like I'm starting to.