Okay okay...so basically I'm so razzled up right now

Everyone that I live with at home right now, my good friend, my ex boyfriend, my mom
they all think that me moving out to Vegas is like some desperate attempt to not be lonely or some shit
or like I don't really know what the fuck I'm doing
or like I'm not old enough to make my own decisions for myself
ooorrr like the fact that I'm basically fucking up my life

In reality, these people might be thinking that they're speaking "the truth" but honestly looking at all of their lives personally, they're all very afraid people in their walks of life. And It's bothering me hardcore that they're just like "Jess I just don't understand why you're doing this"

WHO THE FUCK CARES, IT'S MY DECISION AND WHY DOES IT EVEN INVOLVE YOU SECOND GUESSING THEM OR THINKING THAT YOU KNOW WHAT'S BETTER FOR ME, OR WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPIER


I understand where they're coming from. They care for me and they want the best for me. That's very nice and honestly I'd probably look out for one of them too. HOWEVER, I wouldn't make them feel bad or tell them how they live their lives if they decided to open up to me about their issues.

Several years ago, my life was shaken up on my own accord. I ran away from home twice and I was just doing some really dumb shit. Honestly, I'm so grateful for this big fuckup in my life because it taught me to take things more seriously and love and respect myself more. Since then my life has gotten significantly better. And though my last relationship was very rocky and all and I've still done some fucked up shit, I've grown. I can't say that everything in my life is perfect because it's not. But I hate hate hate how one of my good friends could even have the gall to say that my life has gone "downhill" since my phase.

Just
Please,
STOP

Why must it be you who gets to judge me and my life??? If you're so upset with the decisions I"m making then why don't you just say "TO HELL WITH HER" and get on with your life...why WHY do you have to include your unnecessary opinions in a decision that I've already made and am going through with.

It's just very contrasting, because the people that I'll live around more often don't have a bad thing to say to me. And maybe I have it all wrong and secretly everyone thinks that me moving is absolutely nuts but whatever, I really don't mind. I think that moving will make me very happy and I'm so excited to start my life with a really great person. And I just don't understand why people need to treat me like this...as though I'm so strange or just have everything all wrong.

I don't know, me ranting doesn't help any...and even while writing this I can agree that yeah I"m making some huge crazy decision but it's not a mistake and it won't be something I regret. I'm moving forward with this and those who are in my life that feel all sour about it just need to accept it.