I've made one of the biggest decisions in my life so far by putting my two weeks in at my current job. I've been at this job for almost 3 years now and if you knew me well enough, you'd know that I definitely ignored the risk and took the chance. See, I've always defaulted on having this job because it's been the only way that I know how to stay normal. I've been able to live off this job and for the past three years I've been depending on it. Before I couldn't fathom leaving it because it's really important to me that I depend less and less on others and more on myself. However, I've been convinced lately that a little help may not hurt so bad. In this sense, I could look past the risk and see myself happier down the road. It's so scary and in a ways I'm very stressed out, but at the same time I've never known a feeling like this. I feel like now that I won't have a job, (though there is a new job I hope to get that I have an interview for this week) I have to potential to live any way I'd like. At least until the money runs out lol. But I feel like this could push me towards something new, something better. And that in itself makes this all worth it. Now, I am just very worried currently about posting a few weeks in the future dreading this decision. But now that I've made it a point, I'll probably just avoid this situation at all costs, and make sure that I never have to feel such a way. I need this new job I might get. I mean, it'll be a different change of pace than what I'm used to. And what I'm used to is ...chaos -_- But I think I can do this new change!! I mean...it's retail and I've always wanted to get into that job field. I know I can adjust. I just need to be given the chance to prove myself!!

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