Ahh...
I'm actually not stressed out for once.
I drew this picture of some still life stuff in art class today. Compared to all of the others mine looked so amateur, but I was still really happy with it. I kind of started to understand a little more about art. It's making me want to open up that outlet once more.
Anyway, I've had a day off from work and I should be off till the end of this week, but for once I'm not stressed about cramming activities in.
I mean, I have a lot to do, but it's not really getting me down.
This is great, I suppose.
There's just something that's bothering me.
I haven't felt much pain today or yesterday.
It's strange because on Monday I was at my lowest, and I peaked after that...
I'm just worried slightly, I guess..
I mean, what if that means this is always how it's going to come and go?
I don't know, before I used to be able to face any danger that I knew could potentially happen .
And then suddenly I became cowardly and couldn't stand up to anything taller than me.
Haha...
I used to think, "even if everyone died today, I could still roam this earth with a smile!!"
I used to be so confident just a couple of months ago.
I feel it a little now, coming back....I think I'm begining to win this fight.
Or I just stopped acting like a little bitch.
Either way, it's progress. Things like this happen. I was bound to fall eventually. But soon enough, I'm going to be myself again, the true person I've always wanted to be. Hopefully I don't hurt anyone this time. Don't mind me!!!
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